Friday, October 7, 2011

To Move or Not To Move...

“A ship in a port is safe but that is not what ships are built for.” ~someone

I’m almost 31. I own a house in Des Moines, Iowa. I want nothing more than to move away from the place I’ve called home my whole life. I want to live in Colorado and I have wanted this for a couple years now. Although the thought of moving away from family and friends is scary. I see myself in Colorado and I’m smiling a lot.

At 31 though, is it too late to start a new life? Will I be able to make new friends? Will I like the job I get? Will I be able to deal with my house as a rental? Will I be able to sell my house in August when I’m able to put it on the market? How much will I lose by selling it? What if I want to come back? Is it failing if I don’t end up liking it out there? Will I be able to find a good job if I do have to come back? What will I miss with my friends and family? Will B and P know who I am if they go months without seeing me? Will anyone really care that I’m gone? Will anyone really miss me?

I am safe and secure in Des Moines. I could easily play 6 Degrees of Holly Moeller with anyone in this town and find a connection back to me. Which in some ways is the problem. As much as this town has to offer… been there, done that. Any guy I meet.. I probably dated one of his friends. In some ways, I am bored of this town. (Des Moines is NOT boring, I am just bored). My fear of moving away has kept me in this city my WHOLE life. I have never lived more than 20 minutes away from my parents.

I keep thinking about moving - daily I think about it and I’ve put some wheels in motion to get this going. Having help getting  a resume together. I have an old co-worker that moved out there last spring that said I could rent a room from him. (My wonderful Uncle also offered his house for me to crash at for a while). Yet, I think to myself: “Self, should you really be doing this? Can you afford it? Should you just wait till you sell your house? Should you just wait till you are 35? Should you just wait till you are retired? Maybe just push it out of your mind, cause it’s never going to happen?

Why not take this risk? Why not do something you want to do and deal with everything else as it comes? Duh, I’ll meet friends, I’m out going and awesome… right? You shouldn’t wait any longer to move… do it over Thanksgiving weekend, or is that too soon? Why would I move away from some of the best friends I’ve ever had in my life? They’d still be my friends and visit right? Will I get there and hate it and run home to mommy and daddy? Will I fail? Will people say “I knew you wouldn’t make it out there.”? Will this move really be good for me? What if I get out there and HATE it?

“The mountains call and so I must go…” ~someone else

Have you moved far away from ‘home’? What was the scariest part? What was the best part?

1 comment:

  1. Life is too short Holly. There is no time like the present. If you build it, they will come. (that one doesn't really make sense but I was on a roll with sayings). I'm just saying that if you want to do it- DO IT. You don't want to wake up 10 years from now and wonder, what if? take the plunge!! And i'm coming to viist. At least 2x a year. :)