Muffin Top... Meltdown?????

I voiced my frustrations last week.... and I will do so again this week.
I gained a pound. A freaking pound in the last week.

I worked out 11 out of the last 14 days.

I'm so frustrurated.

BUT today... I feel skinnier... so I'll just hang on to that and ignore the scale. Although I wish the scale would reflect the fact that I am working out and eating decent - not perfect - but decent.

I'll just keep at it.

Muffin Top Meltdown

Meltdown? MELTDOWN!?!?! I'm about to freaking have one.

With the gaining and losing on WW's I've decided this new Points Plus system (that they have changed twice during the weeks that I have been involved) does NOT work for me. Last time I did WW's, at the same time of year on the Original Points system, I lost almost 15 pounds. Now after about 12 weeks  - I've lost a TOTAL of 3.8.

F-ing bite me Weight Watchers. I worked out 6 freaking days last week, watched what I ate. I've only had TWO beers in the last TWO FREAKING WEEKS!! TWO FREAKING BEERS!!

And I gained 1.4 pounds in the last 2 weeks.

My muffin top is not going anywhere. It's a ridiculous thing. No wonder people quit with weight loss goals so easily. If you don't see results - why would you continue!?!?

I am going to keep working out, hit it a little harder and also think of a new way to watch what I eat - but not Weight Watchers. All it's doing is making me miserable that I am not losing.

Sorry Jennifer Hudson and Charles Barkely - you can take your Weight Watchers and shove it.

Muffin Top Meltdown

I'm not even gonna talk about it. I didn't weigh in for 3 weeks..... and HOLY SHIT. It's soooo easy to gain weight.

I'm so ashamed.

Muffin Top Meltdown

Muffin Top Meltdown

My personal goal to lose: 20 Pounds

Amount lost this week: .2

Total amount lost: 9.0

This means I reached my 5% goal on the WW’s standard! J I’m pretty proud of that – but at the same time – have no idea HOW I’m losing anything. I am watching what I eat, but I’m by no means being ‘good’, I’m keeping track of points in my head, not really tallying them up. I’m seriously at a loss on how this happened. I’m happy about it, don’t get me wrong, but don’t feel like I’ve worked hard enough for it. AND I’m nowhere near, what I want to weigh or look like. I know I have to add working out to the mix…. Get in shape and I’ll feel much better about myself when I look in the mirror.

Muffin Top Meltdown

Muffin Top Meltdown

My goal to lose: 20 Pounds

Amount lost this week: .8

Total amount lost: 8.2

Weeks to go: 14

This week I did not eat well. Did better than I would have before WW’s… but I definitely ate more points in a week then I should have. So many good dinners out and wine called my name a couple times.

Portion control is key, and as I said, I’ve done better then before WW’s – but I still need to stick to healthy alternatives like fish, or salads not Fettuccine Alfredo, when going out to eat.

It’s only going to get harder with the holidays approaching, and we do not weigh in next week, so I really need to keep myself thinking about good eating habits to continue to lose and not gain

Muffin Top Meltdown

My goal to lose: 20 Pounds

Amount lost this week: 3.0

Total amount lost: 7.4

Weeks to go: 15

I have also started walking on both of my 15 minute breaks on the treadmill in the gym at work. It feels good to get away from my desk for a bit, especially since work is pretty stressful right now.

I love reduced fat Wheat Thins (16 crackers) and a wedge of Laughing Cow cheese as my morning snack. Altogether it’s only 4 points and is quite filling!

I haven’t tried making any new recipes but my mom did make the Buffalo Chicken Dip off of skinnytaste.com and it tasted like the full fat version. I couldn’t tell a difference. The hard part of that is just eating a portion of it… not the whole pan. It’s sooo yummy, it takes WILL POWER to stop. J

Muffin Top Meltdown

My goal to lose: 20 Pounds

Amount lost: -4.4 pounds

Weeks to go: 16

Besides too many beers this weekend, at 3 points a can, I think I’ve done pretty well.

Very good – filling recipe!!! ;)

Crock Pot Chicken Taco Chili (from skinnytaste.com)
Gina's Weight Watcher Recipes
Servings: 10 • Size: 1 1/4 cups • Old Points: 3 pts • Points+: 5 ptsCalories: 203.7 • Fat: 1.4 g • Carb: 33.3 g • Fiber: 10.0 g • Protein: 16.9 g

· 1 onion, chopped

· 1 16-oz can black beans

· 1 16-oz can kidney beans

· 1 8-oz can tomato sauce

· 10 oz package frozen corn kernels

· 2 14.5-oz cans diced tomatoes w/chilies

· 1 packet taco seasoning

· 1 tbsp cumin

· 1 tbsp chili powder

· 24 oz (3-4) boneless skinless chicken breasts

· chili peppers, chopped (optional)

· 1/4 cup chopped fresh cilantro

Combine beans, onion, chili peppers, corn, tomato sauce, cumin, chili powder and taco seasoning in a slow cooker. Place chicken on top and cover. Cook on low for 10 hours or on high for 6 hours. Half hour before serving, remove chicken and shred. Return chicken to slow cooker and stir in. Top with fresh cilantro. Also try it with low fat cheese and sour cream (extra points)

(I already had cooked some chicken and shredded it previously, so I threw everything in the crockpot on high for about 3 hours.)

Muffin Top Meltdown

Today was our first weigh in. I am officially the heaviest I have ever been. I knew the number I saw on the scale was going to cause me to dream of being anorexic, but I love food too much to not eat it at all. So… bulimic? Nope – not a huge fan of gagging myself until I throw up. SOOOOO with that being said I think Weight Watchers is the best, healthiest, alternative for me and my eating disorder. (I am a glutton)

I also had to wear dress pants to work today. No jeans. So I rummaged through my closet and I have 6 pairs of nice khakis and khaki capris from The Limited, none of which fit. So I am sitting here today with the queen of muffin top’s happening at the top of my pants, with only 1 of the 3 buttons, actually buttoned.  Just think… when I lose the weight I want to/need to lose I will have 6 ‘new’ pairs of pants to wear!! J

My goal to lose: 20 pounds

Amount lost: --

Weeks to go: 17

Recipe of the week:

My mom made this Sunday for the Packers game and it’s pretty tasty. A serving is half a cup!

It lists the Points for WW’s on it.  Pumpkin Pie Dip

Holy Muffin Top, Batman!

So… I currently weigh more then I think I have ever weighed in my life.

What makes this even more pathetic is in December/January (10 months ago) I was fitting in to my high school jeans, and if I do say so myself… I had a hot little body!

Now – not so much.

Even my ‘big jeans’ are too tight.

So in order to fix this current muffin top situation. <----click for pictures of muffin tops! I have joined Weight Watchers and I am going to track my progress on this blog. My future food posts from restaurants will no longer contain 4 appetizers, plus a meal, plus a dessert - as much yumminess as that is, it's not good for anyones waist line!

I need to get healthy and to a weight I am happy with because even though the way I look should not affect who I am as a person – it totally does. I hate the way I look and I am positive EVERYONE else see’s all my flaws too…

This will be called my “Muffin Top Meltdown” and I will post every Tuesday my progress and weight lost with Weight Watchers. J